Saturday, November 20, 2010

Where in this world, there are people who want more love and care from the parents.
Where in this world, there are people who want more attention from the parents.

In this world, I have parents who people are envy for, yet I want to push them away.
How many times I broke their heart?
How many times I'm actually not grateful for the things they done?
How many times?

Countless.

They care. They understand. They forgive. They love
Yet how many times I blame them for not doing so?
Yet how many times I blame them because of minor disagreement and forgetting the great things they did for me?

Many times I realise their love, yet many times I didn't after that.
Many times I feel the guilt, yet many times I forget how it feel.

I sincerely feel that, I don't deserve such great parents actually.

22 years old. Yet immature, irresponsible and ungrateful.
I don't deserve any love from anyone at all. I emphasis ANYONE

I am such a loser.
A great loser.

I should be strike by lightning for being an ungrateful child.
They don't deserve to be heart-broken.