Tuesday, June 29, 2010

I began to think that aunties love to stare at me. Either they hate me or they love me.

One scanned me from head to toe and stared at my cute green loafers when I'm traveling in MRT. I wore a white t-shirt with harem pants and my green loafers from online. And I stood at the glass panel near the door. An auntie who was sitting right beside the panel, scanned me from head to toe! I saw it from the corner of my eyes and she stopped at my shoes.

auntie, I know you love my shoes.
And auntie, I will love you if you love my shoes. :)

Another one stared at me today in a supermarket because I was blocking her way. My back was facing her and HOW THE HELL will I know. And when my friend told me, I looked around and she gave me a rude stare.

auntie, I know you hate me. But there are two words, 'Excuse Me', which if you can, kindly and politely, voice out with your sweet voice. And people will love to give way to you.
Electrifying stare don't work because my back don't have eyes.
And it can't grow eyes.

Other than that, any kind stares (I EMPHASIZE KIND PLS) or curiosity on my cute green loafers are welcome.
I know it's lovely and I'm proud of it. :)







不是男朋友的男朋友

每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，她没有要你等她。



也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。



不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。



她有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望她追到。

她遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮她，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和她只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。



每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心她，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做她的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。



特别是这样，
你还是知道，
她永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当她那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？



很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的......



关于爱情：
不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。
不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。
不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。
不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。
其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···



Totally agree.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Folks! I think I wanna try going with suspenders. Recently, I'm in craze with batwings, butterfly-style tunic, any tunic that have loose sleeves. And harem pants. But I'm sad to say, my body is short and can't pull off those high-waisted harem pants. I risk looking cropped off and with big butts.


Photos from www.rice-day.blogspot.com



cool yea.





An interesting, well maybe not, but then a good topic for discussion.

Recently, I saw a watch from Baby-G which I think it looks kind of sleek, yet a bit youthful. ( I don't know what kind of description it is. but whatever.)

Before I show picture of the watch. I wonder what's people first thought when they heard of Baby-G. Childish? Teens? For primary/secondary kids? To be honest, this is my thoughts when I think of Baby-G. I have to admit they have nice candy colours for their watches. And it attract people who loves pop colours. But then again, is it because of the colours that creates the impression it's for teenagers because it's colourful?

Or is it because we used to wear Baby-G watches during our primary or secondary days?

Or is it because the brand name, Baby-G, that sounds kiddish?

If this is so, is it considered childish for a young adult, say 20+ to wear Baby-G watches? That it is not sophisticated enough?

Or it doesn't matter at all, what matters, is how the wearer pull off the style. Individual's style is more important than anything?

Anyway, this is the watch I eye on


I go for black because it's the most versatile colour. The pink face add abit of colour to the watch so that it wouldn't look too dull. Childish? If think pink makes the watch look childish, how about this?


Black and silver, square face. A more what i would called, mature-looking style.

If these watches are not Baby-G, but perhaps some other brands that sound more appealing to adults, will it still create the childish impression?





(please pardon for lousy low-class like english. the author is not good at words. she's merely typing what in her thoughts. thank you)

Friday, June 25, 2010

Your existence is an illusion.

An illusion that came in a minute and gone for weeks.

An illusion that bring nothing but agony.

Thank you, but this illusion should go away.

As far as it could.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

No one in this world is born with the ability to satisfy everyone because no one is perfect.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Street photography is amazing as the streets. Once the first snap, and then the second, third and so on.

A one of need-some-courage photography as you have to quickly snap a shot. Or rather, find a trick to snap people without being too obvious.

As what my friend said, black and white is a GOOD effect for street photography especially for one that seems to tell you the hardship of the subject.

Street photography get your eyes to observe every single thing in the surroundings that you used to neglect. It get you to think the stories of these people walking on the street, their daily routine and their emotions.

Street photography get you to appreciate the surroundings more.

And so, here is my virgin snaps from the streets.







Not perfect. Still going on.




"Your first 10,000 photographs are your worst."- Henri Cartier-Bresson





Dear world,

I want to divert my attention and my focus away from this at least a week.
I feel like going out for a walk tomorrow. But have no idea where to.
Please help me.

Akira

Monday, June 21, 2010

A slight ache.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Yesterday, I had a MSN conversation with a good buddy about 'meeting new people'. It started when I was mentioning that 'we have to make new friends again when a new year starts for us'.

It's fun making new friends, and know more people. But honestly deep in me, I kind of dislike it and always have the fear of meeting new people, because I will worried whether I could know anyone that I can clique with. I know for myself the place LASALLE is, the kind of people who study in this black cubic school, are mostly the 'eat potato' type of people. It sounds stereotype thinking. But really, MOST of them are.

I'm always lucky to have at least a person who I already know before a new semester in a school starts.

In polytechnic, I had Hui Nee to accompany me through orientation and everything. And yea, we were in same course and class.

In LASALLE, I had Hui Ping during the orientation and then we mixed together with the others. And again, she happened to be in same class as me for Foundation year.

Sometimes I wonder, if those days, these two girls were not in the same school/course as me. I wonder, will I still be able to mix with some of the people around me. And will I be a loner actually. Everything seems to be linked.

I see people around me, at the same age as me (or about), is mixing with many people. Making new friends, meeting new people, talking to almost everyone. I always think, what's the ability or characteristic in them that allow them to go interacting with people, and it's seem easy. But when I try, it just seems hard for me. I don't know what to say to the other party. I don't know how to get involve in their conversation. I don't know how to start a conversation.

I'm wondering, perhaps there's a problem with my EQ. My social skills are not up to standard at all.

I agree not everyone can mix with everyone/anyone. There's bound to be a group of people of a certain characteristic that each of everyone don't like to mix.

I shall be honest for myself, that I don't seems to mix with people who are very 'westernized-influenced'. It sounds vague but friends who know me well, should be able to understand it, I believe.

I'm 100% introvert by nature. Friends who knew me since Secondary school, would have seen the quiet side of me. I'm not like some classmates who can just make noise and entertainment people and enjoy themselves. To be honest, I hope I'm like one of those classmates, where you can just express yourself without minding how people will look at you.

I can't. I don't dare to express out in front of strangers. Only close friends. Unless it's in the situation where I feel that I should really let go of myself. Then I will do it and start being crazy. Otherwise, no.
Polytechnic life was the only 3 years that I was more ra-ra because I joined school activities. Yet again, the ra-ra didn't last. To think about it, I feel that I'm just trying hard to be ra-ra. I just trying to be one because people around are and they influenced me. It was damn obvious that during the I-guides sub committee training, I totally can't hyper up as a facilitator. I try but nothing push me. I'm trying very hard I think people can see.

I don't know. I think it's just me. It's a nature planted inside me and it's very hard to remove. I feel that this plant will be a burden for me especially I need to expand my social network as a route to be a designer. Otherwise, I think I will just face a dead end. Design communication is what I want to do. It requires communication between people using design yet I can't even tackle the communication problem for myself. How contradicting.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Love is just like fishing, where it takes time and opportunity.

Using a right bait is just like the methods on how you woo a person. Chances of attracting the fish is high if you know understand the needs of the fish.

If not, chances of hooking a fish is near zero. Or maybe just a small miserable fish.

If you think you can attract the fish in your own desperate way (because you're too hungry), sad to say, you will not get any fish as well. It will just be a turn-off.

Likewise, if you don't have the patience at all, forget about fishing.

Just be a miserable person without any catch.

You don't deserve to enjoy any delicacy since you can't even pass this patience test.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Oh crap! The hyper genes in me is going to burst out after watching Muse and The GazettE live performance. The hyper and enthu crowds that keep jumping and headbanging.

OMG. Any live performance or rock concert to satisfy my needs?

Friday, June 11, 2010

Like finally, I'm picking my pencils and eraser and started practicing drawing human portrait.
Yes I totally suck at human drawing
I should make good use of holidays to practice more and more and more.

My first sketch in holiday
れいた (bassist) of ガゼット (The first one to come in mind. Because I can skip drawing the nose =X)

Think it looks pretty decent. Just that the eye look slightly bigger. Tried to darken the corners to add shadows but still, failed.

Original photo
here

ja!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

I was ranting to my mum that there isn't much nice places to explore in Singapore and i want to go out of this country to take photos.

And she said,

'you think you photographer meh?'
'you haven't explore all parts of Singapore yet lor.'
'got go Bukit Timah Nature Reserve? Sentosa? Mount Faber? Jurong Bird Park? blalalalaaaa..'

YES BINGO. Thanks Mummy. You give me an idea

SENTOSA

To be honest, I only went to the 'purple area' in Sentosa (whatever the place is called) where the Luge and rides and stuff are there. And also Siloso Beach.

I remember there's a bridge that Sentosa and I have yet to go there.

Think it's time to explore there.

HOPE I CAN BEFORE END JULY. Weather don't seems to be good these few weeks.

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

I'm not going to anticipate anything this time.

I shall be just me.

And things will just go on as natural.

Saturday, June 05, 2010

Old photos.

-It reminds me of how much people around me have grown.
-I see how much my parents aged.
-I see how young my brother and I were, when we just moved to Eunos. And now, we are young adults.
-I see the childhood memories and the fun times between my cousins and myself.
-It makes me miss my third uncle.
-It makes me, wanting to stop growing old.
-I find one rare photo of my grandfather with the most possible smile on his face, on his birthday with his grandchildren whom were very young back then. (I was telling my cousin that, we seldom got to see him smile where he was still around)

And old photos are good enough to make me cry.

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

My dad's old camera, Fujica ST 801.
IT IS A GOOD FINDING IN THE CUPBOARD!!

He got a zoom lens, flash, shutter release cable...

OMG. I need to find a camera hospital to clean and repair all the molds, sticking on the lenses!!!





A few things that make me go screamy today;

I finally bought the boots that I eye on since March, and yes, the 20% discount is still on.

I saw Neo Genesis Yearbook 2009 with GazettE on front cover (which I failed to buy last time) in Kinokuniya. And I saw only 1 copy on the shelf. I was hugging that magazine tight in my arms, walking around in the shop, wondering should I buy. And yes baby, I never buy. I shall wait till June or July. Perhaps when their new single out in July, their photos will be everywhere on magazine covers. I HOPE.

i saw this typography wall calendar from Kikki K, that cost $29 something ($20.97 offer price). And I was freaking like 'OMFG! I WANT THAT.' Yes I love Typography. And I seriously love the typography design for each month. GEEZ. Should I buy?





Also also, Shu Jie mentioned that she read 2 visual kei bands will be coming to Singapore for some performances, along with a few Korean group. SuG and LM.C
SHOULD I GO? tickets at $118. Though I only listen to some of SuG's songs.

AND AND LASTLY
HOLGA FILTER SET! It's tempting me to get it.



Ok. enough of rants.