Friday, March 28, 2008

老天爷，请你告诉我，该怎么做才是最好的一个决定。
1）告诉医生，我决定要动手术。让一切一了百了，不要浪费医生，爸妈和我的时间。好让我可以继续我要的生活，梦想。
2）拖到6个月后，再做一次的检查，然后再决定要不要动刀。可是，之前的报告，以说明动刀是迟早的事。而且，再做一次的检查，只能浪费爸妈的钱，自己也对check-up 感到厌倦了。

嗨。。。我好想选择1号。但我怕，很怕，很怕。
想到以前，我怕。
想到将来，我也怕。


有时，就想说，死了就算。不用那么麻烦。动了又动，开了又开。 万一是什么事，还不是一样。。

很累。。很烦。。

我的命运，就是那么如此的。。。。。

Thursday, March 27, 2008

I got no idea what's going on in my brainy cells, that control my nervous system and emotions. Low-spirit, Emo-ness conquer my Happy and Laughter. Perhaps, being alone most of the time can seriously make people think hay wire. Being paranoid. Being insecure.

I wonder in the future when I had my permanent job. Will I be like that. Perhaps for now, it proof that, I'm not really prepared for career. I'm still in the mindset of ME being a student. To make it worst, I feel like I'm some attachee in my current workplace, rather than part-time employee.

What is this nonsense? Time to shake me awake from my Emo land.
And get back to Elmo land instead.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Catch JJ's geeky moves here! HAHA

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Tomorrow shall be the beginning of this 'Admin Assistant' job of mine.
I got an uneasy feeling that, this will be a tedious one.


Shall see how long I can last...




I'm trying to adapt my life without dear. Ohh...it's so weird not to meet him up, send him and receive his SMS. It is so weird. 6 months..gonna be a long time..