Friday, November 09, 2007

Sometimes I feel that my health is getting not any better. My mum always nag at me that something will happen to me if I continue to have late sleeps. Yes, I'm a stuborn bull. I always refused to listen to my mum despite knowing my own condition. Coz, sometimes I hope that I can just ignore my health signal and be like a normal person.

I feel scared sometimes, wondering what will actually happened to me someday. Like today, I just stood at same area for some time, and I began to feel tired. I wonder is it because of the crowd? Or I drank tea. Yea. Another stuborn action. Tea isn't good for me, but I still drink it sometimes.
Few days ago, I walked around the school, climbing up some stairs, and I'm out of breath. Is this because my bag is heavy or I don't have much stamina?

If something really happen to me, do I deserve it? I didn't take care of myself even though knowing the consequences.

But still, I trust myself. My mum says, fleshy face means got 'Fu'. I got 'Fu'. I can go through any difficulties. This is just a test for me. god will bless me (: