Thursday, July 27, 2006
Do you think I FREAKIN' CARE?
What am I doing now? I fee that I ain't in my own self. I feel being posessed. by devil? by angel? by who? I don't know.
Who am I? What am I? What kind of person am I like? I don't know.
Seriously I don't know my own self well, let alone knowing others people well. I don't even know what kind of person am I. I don't know what is my personalities. even though results of personalities tests could be accurate. but that's only the outer of me. It doesn't describe the underlying me. Says I'm a obedient and innocent girl. Yet I'm not. I can say a string of vulgarities, hokkien or english. Believe?
I DON'T KNOW if I'm an angel or a devil. They are always in me, fighting to be the boss of the day. IF angel wins, I'll be a nice person. Cool and calm. Calm mind, everything calm. But if devil wins, I'll just be another person, being bitchy or anything. Worst, a calm body with a devil mind. OR not, I can an angel in front of someone, a devil behind that someone. Says I'm hypocrite? Could be? OR maybe, I'm just being a loser. Scare of getting into trouble with the whoever person? Maybe. But yet, sometimes I just confront with the person without thinking. So, am I still a loser? This sound scary uh.
Ya, it does. I'm just like a hidden monster in a human body. You never know what I'm thinking all the while. Yes, even I sometimes don't know what I'm thinking, and I have to always get away from that crappy thinking. It creeps me sometimes too. Especially just now when I'm bathing, my mind is in a twirl. Song playing in my mind, and yet I'm thinking about I'm typing right now, my feelings. Everything just clashed around in my mind, that I can't concentrate on my bathing. I wonder is this form of depression?
OH yes. Such a split and unknown personalities. WIll I get depression? I think I need to see a shrink sooner or later.
I wonder when I know my true self. As stated. I'm still finding my way, heading to whatever I can see my true self. But I'm seem to be lost and confuse by my thinking.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
New CHALLENGE. I'm been assigned as the Games I/C for East View Primary for the mentoring. Woo Hoo or Oh No?
WooHoo because I can gain experience and it requires me to speak to mentors and mentiees most of the time to explain the games
Oh NO because I have to start cracking my brain for more games. Haha. Nvm. Still got Maryam and Hayati and others to help along~ luckily. Hehe
But I think it will be very fun and exciting ahead. Have to try my best to think of nice games for them! HAHAHAHA
Now pictures
EVPS family
Boon and ME
Me and Chee Yong[what is he doing!? grabbing someone's hair. HAHA] Lolx. I think I look funny here. HAHA
At the bus-stop.
With Wen Jun [beside Boon] and Yuan Yi[beside me]. They are cute! Haha
Don't cha think this picture is so cool!? Look's like some jeans advertisement or something. Only flaw is, our legs aren't that long like those 170 and above models. Hehe
Come to think about it. Mentor is quite fun, especially if you see those kids. So cute and active. But in the waking up moment, is a dreadful thing. Especially for people who love to sleep. Wahaha
Saturday, July 22, 2006
I'm officially 18 years old. Can go club/buy toto/buy 4D/buy alcohol/watch M-18 movies etc etc. But then, these are the things that I'm most likely
Nah. I don't want all these things that an 18 years old person can do. The only thing I want is to...LOOK MORE LIKE 18! That's My ONE and ONLY wish--- for now. Haha
my besties hahd a mini birthday surprise for me. Eh. But then hor, change your trick leh, my dearest-es. Haha. Use so frequently people will know one leh. Haha. But still, it's so nice of them la. Hehe
my birthday cake!
My crazy friends who keep me LAUGHING all day non-stop [mostly. haha]
This is ME! Actually I'm pretending to use that TWO big round piece of chocolates as earrings.But then, ai yo, can't see clearly.
My present...
That's all for my birthday~ Haha.
Man..editting pictures can really take ages.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
A combination of brushes which I anyhow add around with my itchy hand.
Hope it's nice =D
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
OH YES! It's Wednesday tomorrow!
My favourite day of the week--- so far. HAha. I realised I never post pictures of my food from the Catering lab for past two weeks. Ah, since I made the promise to post pictures of them. I better do so~
Ah ha! This was the week when I was absent for school. Yes. Stupid fever. I want to try the wanton with vegetable or something [the one in plastic box]. They were done by my group! From Jiawen, she said that she did till her hands pain. Eww..I want to try doing it. Haiz
That was last week Catering's food. My group done the French onion soup. It wasn't really my favourite, because I don't eat onions! But it don't have the onion smell la, so still can accept it. Haha. But the process of cooking the soup, was a hell! I hate to use steam jacketted kettle, especially the cleaning. ahhh~~~. The lasagne was nice. I like the cream puff most! It will be even better if it was refrigerated. The chill creamy puff...just make me drool man. Paiseh la~ I love to eat puff, especially DURIAN. MUAHAHA.
Food Food...=D
Monday, July 10, 2006
Laugher is the best medicine on Earth ever. And it's really true. It just make our day more happier, and what Ms Choo say, 'Be happy! Don't be so sad!'
Ah Ah. That's what we were doing just before she said that. We were laughing till our little stomach ache.
I wonder if we exercise our stomach as well, as we laughed. Otherwise, how come we get stomach ache every time we laugh so much? Because our stomach muscle is stretching here and there, that's why it ache what. I anyhow guess de. But it sound logic anyway
Ah..I also realised. Everyone has different ways, and direction, when laughing. What I meant by direction? WHAT HAS DIRECTION GONNA DO WITH LAUGHING?
You see. Some people bend forward when they laugh. Some bend backwards. Some step forwards. Some backwards. Some sway around [well, I don't know. Haven't got to see any who laugh like that. But I shall observe. haha] etc etc.
Don't believe. With your cliche [best choice, because they are the only people that you feel comfortable with. so you can laugh OUT LOUD naturally], stand in a circle, facing everyone in the circle, and crap on some funny things. And when the LAUGHING GAS is coming, observe it! [If you need to laugh too. Pls do so, and observe as well. Don't force yourself not to laugh, you will explode. Trust me]
You will realise everyone bend/move differnt directions when they laughed. Why in circle? Because it can be observe easily. It will be like a flower that is not bloomed. Then when it bloomed, the petals will open right?
Hm. Never mind
The black dots present people. Purple arrows refer to the direction where the person bend when laughing. Dotted line refer to the person moving backwards
Now understand?
Actually, the illustrated picture, was the way how we laughed this afternoon. Man. They laughed till like don't what when I told them! Hahaha. It was funny. omg
-laughs out loud-
You should try this. But it works best, under circumstance when everyone was already laughing and you suddenly told them what you observe. Haha
OMG. Increase of laughing wrinkles.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
ai yo! I'm feeling so happy now. That kind of satisfaction feeling after doing something. Although the 'thing' you accomplish might not be that NOBLE or what-so-ever, but still, you did something! And it turn out to be NICE and so...mama-mi-yaaa
Now, I want to share this satisfaction and happy feeling with everyone. Please pardon because it's the first time, hm I suppose, that I drew something like that. And I just drew it, out of boredom. Not really boredom actually, just that I'm waiting for the tutor so I just drew, during ApFS, on my Topic 4 Lecture notes. Oops.
Here it is...
The black and yellow background were not drawn by me personally. It's done by this fantastic program called Photoshop. Haha.
I'm not so genius to draw out that effect duh. But it think the effects did turn out well and nice.
Ooo..So happy happy~~ *staring at my work piece MORE O.O* =D
And ah...feel free to give comments. Hm, Bad or Good, any. I welcome all comments. Please say your TRUE comments. Deceiving yourself is not good, because you're not the FISH and I'm not the BEE HOON. [it's a lame joke]
Like that I can improve mar~