Saturday, November 26, 2005

totally disappointed in myself! What kind of Assistant FA am I?! Keep so quiet most of the time and let Steven do most of the leading？

I feel so bad, so regret, so gulity. How I wish I can turn the time back and I would tell myself to be more enthu!

Why I can't do that? Something seems to stop me from being enthu.

I want to be enthu, I want to be as crazy. I tell my group to be as crazy as possible, and yet I never done a good example.

What is the reason? Is it I'm scare? OR is it I just can't do it?

Before this I-guides, I keep thinking what I want to do. And after the I-guides, I was thinking about this and that. But why just can't I show it out!?

For example. During this game called Caterpillar. I want to tell the group to work together and say '1,2....' so everyone will move together at the same pace. But, I just can't open my mouth to do it! Haiz.

So disappointed.....WHATＩCAN DO!? I don't want this to happen again. Be it for the next few workshop, or the actual open house, or any other activities like this...