Thursday, July 14, 2005

Tomorrow is the day of choosing our CDS. Till now, I'm still not sure of whating CDS to take beside psychology.

MY friends want to take sociology. HOnestly speaking, the moment when they say they wanted this, my first reaction, 'huh?'. Not blur, but reluntant. I don't want sociology to be one of my CDS. I just have a phobia for this.

What is so scary about sociology? This subject introduces you to basic sociological perspectives in human behaviour. You will have the opportunity to examine current social issues, and develop an analytical mind. Topics include deviance and crime, mass media, culture, social interaction, ethnic relations, globalisation, cyber-culture, gender issues etc. [taken from APEL website] And obviously, it definately requires lots of interaction. Maybe lots of conversation? as in presentation or what? That's something I really hate. Is just like CSAS. I have some kind of phobia for CSAS because almost very lesson, we may have to speak in front of class. That's sometimes i'm really afraid of. One thing is because of my english.

As you see, students who want sociology, should be comfortable with reading, writing and conversing in English. Reading in English, still ok. Writing, so-so, but sometimes I may have difficulties. COnversing? Ah, I have a big problem here. Not that I don't speak in English at all. I do of course. But, somehow, it's just sound lousy. My pronounciation. I feel that I will somehow 'suffer' alot if I choose sociology.

Ok, for CSAS, still not that bad if I have to speak in front of my class, as we know each other kind of well. Unlike for Sociology, my class may have many people who are really good in their English language? The way they speak is really fluent? I will have stress if this happen. You will see me practice and practice several times at home, practicing my speech or whatever.

You can say I'm low-confident. True. I'm really low confident when come to this issue. My standard of English is really can't make it. Ok, not that serious! Haha. I just feel that I can't make it. Ok. That's sound more, better. HAHA.

Haiz. I don't know. I may want Web Publishing instead of Sociology. Hm, because last time I had always want to learn how to publish a web. Well? i don't know.

ARGH! Why do we need CDS? Can't just 1 will be enough? NEED THREE!? Argh. Just our subjects alone can give us headache, I don't want my CDS to add to my headache as well.

Oh well, that's life.

Let's accept the reality. Shall we?