Tuesday, January 04, 2005

I don't know. I really don't know. Sad? or just being sensitive?

I feel that he had a bad impression of me. Maybe, thinking that I'm blur, stupid and useless.

Somehow, i feel that he dislikes me, or maybe he finds me irritating. I don't know why. Maybe because of what I did. But the way he told me, sound very harsh. SOund like as if he hate me or he can't stand me.

Who knows? Maybe he really can't stand me.

Yesterday, he said, 'See, I told you...bla...bla..' The way he said, sounded very harsh. Maybe I'm sensitive. I thought that he was angry or maybe unhappy. Ha. He must be thinking at that time, 'Wah piang, this girl is so troublesome.bla..bla..'

Haiz. what if he really think that way? So sad.

Last time S was also the same. He finds me irritating. Don't know for whatever reasons. He even told me on MSN that he hated the sight of me. You know how hurting these words are?

Never mind. I'm always unlucky in such stuffs. Well, I'm not pretty, or cute or sweet. These are mostly what guys want their girlfriends to be. Ya right? Well, I don't fit.

I think I'm sensitive. Am I? Maybe that is his tone. Maybe he wasn't sound. Just that his voice make the tone sound like as if he was angry. I don't know. But he still talk to me. But then, I always had a feeling that, he don't really like to talk to me. He always keep quiet. When I asked him something, he seems to be very unwilling to talk to me.

Whatever.

Hey, I write all these, not to tell everyone that, 'hey look. this guy is bad' or something like that. No. He is nice and helpful. He is a good guy. Don't think that he is bad. As least his character is good. Not like S. I write these, is just that, I'm not feeling good. I don't want to keep all this in my heart. It make me feel terrible.

Now, at least I feel better than just now. Haiz.