Saturday, January 29, 2005

I don't know what had happen. I feel that, I'm changing. I'm becoming more and more low confidence. I don't know why. Am I becoming anti-social? I feel that I become more and more quiet. I realize that I didn't talk much yesterday when shopping with Xiang and Nee. Am I always like that? OR..

I'm beginning to hate my looks. I feel that I'm so ugly. Everyone around me look so nice. Today, both of them try on some spagetti straps or bare back kind of tops. They look so nice on it. I feel like one ugly duckling. My fashion taste suxs.

Maybe because of this, I always feel so low confidence. So lousy. Feel like gina (Hokkien for 'children'). I hate my hair, my face. Haiz. My hair look so sucky. I feel that I look so dull, so sad-looking.

I don't think this way last time. Honestly, I don't know what makes the change.

Haiz. I really miss the times we are in secondary school. Always get together to discuss question. Even though is just only discussing question, it create the bond between friends. How should I say? It's like, we will gather around, and think/ study together, discuss together. And then is like when we got the answer or something, we will be very happy. Like 'Yea! Got the answer!' and continue doing our work again. It's like very fun.

I want to be back to what I used to be in Secondary school days. The girl who talk a lot. Now, I seem to be kind of quiet. Only if there's topic about my favourite stuffs/people, like Sylvester, I will talk a lot. Hey hey. I'm not trying to mean that I don't care about other stuffs except Sly okay.

Haiz, haiz, haiz

Can anyone help to prevent myself from being sooooo low confidence in my looks or what? I feel like going for an ultimate change, change my hair and everything. I feel so dull…..

Anyway, I bought a pmk skirt. Abit above my knee-level. It don't look short. But I feel that it's short. Never in my life had I ever wear skirt above my knee-level. Oh, what a mountain tortoise right? Yeah. That's I feel that the skirt is short. Know what? I don't dare to wear spagetti strip, bare-back, tight and short shorts, skirt above my knee level etc. Idiot right? May think I'm like so closed mind or 'bao shou'. Why I don't wear? Because I don't dare and my mum don't really like it. Low confidence. No confidence. Always feel that I look ugly or not nice. I hate my thighs . Above my knee level, the skin colour is fair! And below my knee-level, it's dark. That's why. Imagine I wear a short, Can see the different in the skin colour and it's gonna to look real horrible. Haiz…see? I think so lowly of my own look.

My skirt

Don't talk about this. Make me even worst.

I just bought Angela's Aurora. Hm, quite nice. Her voice is bright Oh. I like 'Aurora' . I did try to sing, but must make my voice high. Haiz. And also an ez-link card holder. It's so cute. 90 cents for one. Can't remember which shop I bought from. But I think it's at the level of the Neoprint shop.

Ez-link card holder

Find it very cute. I like that blur colour! So cute! Ohya, in the same shop, I also saw a Sylvester cat doll. It's so cute! Baby Sylvester. I’m going to buy it one day! Haha. I want to make a bracelet wit the word 'Sly' on it. Someone in one of the Sly forum is going to make one. Black leather and the words are very nice! Original is $12.90, but if more people buy together, the shop will offer cheaper, $8.90. Should I get it? It's really nice. Never mind. I want to find another one, my own style de. Lolx. Otherwise, I'm going to have the same time with many others Sly's fans. I wun't get it too as my skin is kind of sensitive to leather, will get rash if I wear it.

Talking about Sly, TODAY THAT'S AN EVENT AT PAYA LEBAR! It's a fiesta and Sly will be there!!! But I can't go. Parents don’t allow since I had just went to SMU on Monday. Haiz. Never mind. Next time. Next event of Sly I want to go. But actually I think, going for such event don't harm. Can't understand why they don't allow. My mother even say, she is trying to control me from being to crazy until I booked a taxi and chase around. Diaox. My mother don't trust me! So sad. With such a strict parents, do you think I have time to chase around him?? To chase around him, I think need almost one whole day. Haiz yo. MY parents ah, don't like that la. Paya Lebar! So near yet so far. So near to my house, yet I can't go. Haiz. * cry *

Happy weekend!

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Can say fail, can also say success

I think this time, there's some improvement. Only a few were charred compared to the first time.

But the thing is that, the cookies were still soft. Haiz. I heat the cookies a few times. But still soft. I think, I need to reduce the amount of oil added.

So sad. Don't want to say le.

Pictures of my cookies

Cookies

Another one

LASt one


I miss Sly so much! This saturday there's another event. At Paya Lebar! It's so near to my house. Haiz. But my mother don't allow. SO, no choice. NExt time! =)

Monday, January 24, 2005

Let me scream, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I GRAB SLY'S HAND!!

No big deal, ya? BUT IT'S THE FIRST TIME I GRAB MY IDOL'S HAND! Oh no.

Ok. Let me say what ACTUALLY happen. Haha.

Hui nee's sister got a ticket for this SMU thingy. She got another ticket from her friend. THANK YOU! But end up, the ticket had no purpose at all. Anyway, thanks!

So, yesterday I went to work first. After the school sales end, I met Huinee at BIshan MRT Station, and we took bus 156 to SMU. It was only 4pm plus.

I felt really weird when we walked in SMU. IS like, all adults and I felt really out of place. When we walked to the area that the ticket stated, the students there like look at us. I felt so weird. And the campus was kind of silent. Quiet. So, we walked to the foodcourt/cafe or whatever it is, to eat something so that we have the energy!

At about 5.45pm, we went to the place stated in ticket. I know why it was so quiet. Because, we are at LEVEL 1!! The happening was at LEVEL 2. -.- Instead of taking lift, we walked up the stairs, to avoid any awkard moments. HAHA.

From what the ticket stated, we must go to Business Block Classroom 5.We looked into the room, it was like small, and impossible for Sly and Taufik to appear in there. But outside the block, there was some carnival. Patron Day, they called it. And there's a BIG stage.
Well, we don't really know what we should. WE just walked around the carnival there. Then went back to the Business Block. Afew people were there, and ya, it's reaching 6.30pm soon. And from the ticket, we should register at 6.30pm. Those people like looked at us in a weird way. Huinee and me quicky hid behind the pillar. Haha. It's like, really very weird. Imagine a group, i think more than 5, looking at us, from head to top?
Huinee began to think that, maybe Sly and Taufik were not going to perform at SMu, but at Zouk, that's why they were getting the pass to Zouk. Maybe registered first, then go to Zouk. I was like, No!! Hoping what Huinee guess will not be true. At 6.30pm, the lady-in-charge came and gave us a form, Registeration form. We are gonna to fill in our IC no, JC we came from and stream. But, we can't fill in those! We even thought of faking it. But that lady said, the form will be for lucky draw and if we won, need to produce our IC. Both of us like stoned. Don't know what to do. Huinee suggested that why don't we just leave and forget about it. But I don't want to give up. Insist to maybe ask that lady about it. But we didn't at all. Haha.

UNtil, we heard one girl telling that lady that, she had a friend, but is from secondary. That lady like gather her staff and discuss about it. Haha. We took the opportunity to run away to somewhere else to talk about this. We also wait for that girl (secondary girl) to come out. And we followed her until had the opportunity to ask her what really happen la. This girl, Sharon, told us, we don't have to fill in the form. *phew* But about the Zouk, we went back again and ask another lady. That another lady told us, Sly and Taufik will be performing in SMU. Three of us, especially Huinee and me, were like 'phew! LUCKILY'

SMiling faces! Haha. SO excited. We quickly get the first row seats once the people at the first row moved away. Even when wanted to remove the seats, we secure the first row place. HAHA.

Then performances start. SMU rock bands perform. Everyone was like swaying and moving their bodies. Even the two friends of mine beside me also. But I was like, stone, statue. Like an idiot, standing at there. Somemore in first row. SO AWAKARD!! I try to, but i'm feel that like a nerd, like MR BEAN like that. Argh. I just can't get high because I don't know the rock band. Never mind. I just hack.

At 8.30pm, the securities began to sit in front of the barriers. I think they were coming! Huinee even saw someone walking at the backstage, and used a cardboard to block their faces. Yea.

The MC then came out and said, 'Now, this is the moment you have been waiting for.' All the fans SCREAMED! ME and Huinee screamed 'Sly!!' And then, SLY CAME OUT!!! YEA!!

HIGH HIGH!!! I screamed and screamed and screamed! Sly started off by singing It's my life. Me and some other fans did that hand sign and sang together. I try to take photo but Sly keep moving!! Photos turned out to be blur. Haiz. Only a few good ones.

Next he sang He Ain't Heavy, He's my Brother. LAstly, An Jing. I can't remember when he came down the staged to slap the palms of the fans. I quickly held out my hand but he just miss my hand. Haiz. BUt, he missed my hand, but i didn't. LOLX! I grab his hand instead. Two times somemore!! AHHHHH
But I think can't really say I touched his hand, becuase, he was wearing a jacket!! Haiz

Sly

This picture is blur. But I can't find other picture that I can show you how I grab his hand. Imagine Sly stretch his hand straight. Yup. I grab that part of his hand where I circled. The arrow the direction. Haha. Sorry, can't really express what I want to say! But really sad. MY hand is short izzit!!??? For two rounds, he always missed my hand. Haiz.

Huinee going to be really angry. Know why? BEcause, Sly saw her and Sharon. And he did that 'wink-and-point' pose, just to let them that photo. But, Huinee's camera went ga-ga and Sharon's hand keep shaking and she can't take. SO, conclusion, NONE OF THEM TOOK ANY PHOTO OF THIS MOMENT! I did try, but the picture became blur and he moved! Argh.

Hey, not fair! I SCREAM and somemore I STAND IN THE MIDDLE! HE NEVER SAW ME, or at least, NEVER WINK AT ME! Wah! Want to cry. Maybe he did, but I didn't saw. Lolx. NEve rmind la. Can see him very clear. Happy liao. Haha.

Ya, his jacket is cute! He turned to his back facing us, and pointed the word 'Sly' at his left shoulder! aLL OF US SCREAM!! HAha. It's really cute. I think the jacket must be the one that a Sly forum de FANS gave. SO nice. Sweet.

Taufik came out next. Before he came out, I suggested to go and chase after Sly, as we saw some fans already trying to squeeze out of the crowd. But we didn't.

WE stayed to watch Taufik's performance. He sang Mrs and Mr Jones(sorry, if I got the title wrong. Please correct me), Super-something (sorry la, don't know the spelling) and I dream.

We sang together. Yup! I took quite afew good pictures of Taufik, becuase, he isn't moving much. Wah! So sad. WAnt to cry le. MEver mind. Sly is more active. Haha

And yes, I did scream, 'Taufiiikkkkkkkkkkk'. I dragged that 'fik' real long. HAha.

After he perform, three of us tried to squeeze out of the crowd and try to chase them. But too late, we missed them.

Then, three of us told each other about just now. Sharon took a lot of nice photos of SLY!!! Her camera is so good. MY camera is damn lousy. New one leh. But dunno why the picture always become so blur even thought I didn't move my hand. Argh..

Never mind. Hope next time there's another chance! I WANT TO TAKE PHOTO WITH SLY! IF not, HIS AUTOGRAPH. Haiz..

Yea, Pictures that I took. Those that are not clear. Can someone help to sharpen it?? I have one pic that Sly did the hand sign, but it's blur. Is there anyway to help to make it clear?

Sly (side-view)

Sly (but abit dark)

Sly (dark, and blur)

Sly -another side-view

Sly --blur

Sly-- This is the BEST one I ever take!

Taufik --Cool

Taufik

Taufik singing

Taufik --Side view

Taufik--Woah!

Taufik --Maybe a bit blur

Taufik--Abit blur

Taufik.

Yup! That's all. I have others pictures. But blur and not really nice. Haiz.

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Wah! never knew that Photoshop is so difficult! MY dad always want me to sign up a course, but I don't want. Don't feel like lor. But yesterday, after going to NYP and seeing MCS forumers talking about PHotoshop, I have the urge to learn. Haha.

I'm trying to learn how to design different Text. Argh, it's so like, so difficult. Had a hard time. And I manage to do 2 successful. Haha. Others, I don't understand what the tutorial (online) was saying. Trying. Haiz.

I had just done this.



I know it look really sucks. But, I'm a beginner! Give me some time. But I find it very colourful. The style is like OP those kind of style. Haha.

Another one here



I'm trying to make the Text look like Gel Type.

Yea. I just did another. Lolx. I think it look better bla? Look abit bored. Ya I know. But how to improve it!!??



All these three, hm. feel free to give comments. Teach me how to improve on it. Haiz.

Anyway, I'm so excited tomorrow! Can see Sly. But must rush to SMU after working. Hope that auntie will shut her mouth when I tell her I can't go back to AMK. Argh..

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Almost two weeks of not updating the blog. Well, because these few days don't have any special things or there's any inspirations for me to write about. Haha. Ya, all day work and work and work.

I decide to post today, just to update the blog. Haha. For fun.

Anyway, Yesterday was Sly's birthday!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

I saw the Cleverwhite advertisement. He was just so cute! Cool! Admire those 50 fans who were there. Haiz.

But, I hope this coming monday, my parents will allow me to go to SMU to see Sly! Miss Sly....Lolx.

Sly Craze now. Ya

Rock 'n' roll!

Monday, January 10, 2005

I realise that work has tie me down. Now, I feel so busy everyday. Everyday need to work. If it was me in Sec 3 or what, I will be staying at home, doing homework or maybe go out with friends. But now, everyday work work work.

I also realise, there are many things I want to do, but don't have the time to do. huinee and Xiang Ling sure will be busy in Woodgrove till the end of this month. As for me, I will be going to different schools. What are the things that I want to do?
I realise I haven't been taking neoprints. Me and Huinee had always discuss to go to Kbox one day. But it's seems, till now, we still don't have the time to go to Kbox. Maybe got to wait until end of the month. Hope so.

I want to go KFC to try the new burger.

I want to go COmpass to find Sebastian. Haha.

I want..I want to do many things. Haha

I think, the Temasek Seminar at 28th Jan 2005, I don't think the three of us will have the time to go. Unless....unless Uncle John let us go for one day. I really want to go since Temasek Poly is one of my choice.

Haiz, now people are always so busy.

Keep on working until my body is in pain. My back is pain due to bending over for long time. MY right wrist is in pain whenever I press my palm flat onto something like chair or what. I think my wrist was pain due to carrying the table at Canberra on Tuesday last week. I think I sprain my wrist or what. I hope is just temporary pain. Haiz. (Hope not bones crack or what! CHOI! Not so serious bla.)

Today, I took Bus 80 to Heartland Mall to wait for Uncle Ivan. I passed by the holding site at MacPherson. All the memories suddenly came back. And all of the sudden, I miss the times we are in school. I miss my teachers. I miss the laughters from 4E2. I miss the stupid jokes that those boys crack. I miss Teresa's voice and her laughter. I miss the school. I miss the environment. I just miss everything that had happen in 4E2 and in school.

Then, I passed by the original site at Jalan Rampai. I keep thinking, how the school is like? How is everyone? What is everyone doing now? Etc. Etc.

Haiz. Hope that the day when I collect my results, I hope, I will be able to see 4E2 of 2004. The funniest, naughtiest and most cool class. Ya. 4E2, you guys rocks!

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

I don't know. I really don't know. Sad? or just being sensitive?

I feel that he had a bad impression of me. Maybe, thinking that I'm blur, stupid and useless.

Somehow, i feel that he dislikes me, or maybe he finds me irritating. I don't know why. Maybe because of what I did. But the way he told me, sound very harsh. SOund like as if he hate me or he can't stand me.

Who knows? Maybe he really can't stand me.

Yesterday, he said, 'See, I told you...bla...bla..' The way he said, sounded very harsh. Maybe I'm sensitive. I thought that he was angry or maybe unhappy. Ha. He must be thinking at that time, 'Wah piang, this girl is so troublesome.bla..bla..'

Haiz. what if he really think that way? So sad.

Last time S was also the same. He finds me irritating. Don't know for whatever reasons. He even told me on MSN that he hated the sight of me. You know how hurting these words are?

Never mind. I'm always unlucky in such stuffs. Well, I'm not pretty, or cute or sweet. These are mostly what guys want their girlfriends to be. Ya right? Well, I don't fit.

I think I'm sensitive. Am I? Maybe that is his tone. Maybe he wasn't sound. Just that his voice make the tone sound like as if he was angry. I don't know. But he still talk to me. But then, I always had a feeling that, he don't really like to talk to me. He always keep quiet. When I asked him something, he seems to be very unwilling to talk to me.

Whatever.

Hey, I write all these, not to tell everyone that, 'hey look. this guy is bad' or something like that. No. He is nice and helpful. He is a good guy. Don't think that he is bad. As least his character is good. Not like S. I write these, is just that, I'm not feeling good. I don't want to keep all this in my heart. It make me feel terrible.

Now, at least I feel better than just now. Haiz.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Brr.....th.e.. c..o..l..d w.eat..h..er is f..r..eez..i..n.g m.e

Haha, not so terrible. Rainings these few days. Haiz. School re-open soon. But not for me! HAHA. See, I'm so mean. Keep teasing my brother. L0lx. Ok la. Wouldm't tease him anymore, later he got fed up and yell at me.

What happen to our Earth these few days!!?? Keep raining and raining and raining. Making the whole of SIngapore so wet, cold. Thinking of going out in such weather make me feel so 'haiz...raining, troublesome'. STOP RAINING WILL YA! How I wish I'm Bruce Almighty and then I will stop the rain. Let the students start their FIRST DAY in school of year 2005, in a HAppy and fine weather! Haiz. Poor them. First day and they have to carry umbrellas to school. SO troublesome!

Anyway, tommorrow, some of my friends will go to JC for the first 3 months. Wonder how is JC life.

Haiz. The starting of 2005, is a headache and troublesome. Never mind, tomorrow will be a better day. Hope So. Haha.

Once again... School re-opens tml, but not for me. HAHAHA
Haha, ok, I know what to do. HIDE!

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Hi! I'm back for more. I realised that I missed out many h a p p e n i n g s, such as Graduation Day. Erm, Actually I can't think of what happened at one time. Memory block! Haha.

I only know that year 2004, Xiang Ling and Huinee had teased me the most! Ya. until now still the same! Know what. I can die sia, Always get tease. Haha.

Erm, Bartley now had moved back to their original site at Jalan Rampai Road! Cool man! The new Bartleyans and those still studying in there, can get to 'enjoy' the new facilites there. Oww...I miss it. Till now, I haven't see how nice the building was. Argh. Must wait until the day when I got the result! Oh no! It's gonna be scary. Haiz.

But the sad thing is, 2005 Sec 5 batch, will be the last batch wearing the old uniform. I'm going to miss it! I love the old uniform. Why do they have to change to the new one. Yellow and blue. It look so awful! And somehow, it looked the same as GMSS's uniform. Yucks! I'm going to keep my uniform. Otherwise, I won't be able to see it anymore. *sobz* Haha. Ya, maybe you think I'm crazy. But I really love Bartley. Bartley is the best place. Never regret going that school. Although some teachers there are horrible. Haha. *oops*

Beside schools, many things had happened in 2004. Bad things. Terrorists act in Jakata, bombings, riotings in Thailand. In Singapore, Nicoll Highway had collasped too. The Bird Flu. DEngue Fever. Etc. Just one year, many things had happen. Recently, is the Tsunami. It's really scary. Really don't know how long this will drag. But I'm really fortunate that my family and I had went to PEnang in early Dec. Otherwise, it will be unsafe. Tsunami had hit Gurney Drive in Penang. And I had went there when I was in Penang. But luckily, that place wasn't hit that badly. Just flooded some of the road. Phew, so Singaporeans are lucky that SIngapore was not affected by the Tsunami. Otherwise, I think half of Singapore will be gone. Haiz. Lucky us. But the others were not lucky.
These are natural disasters (correct spelling or not?). Way beyond our control. All we can do, is to help the victims by donating money, food or some clothes. Let's pray for the missing people and hope that they will be safe.

Well, that's all for 2004. After what had happened between my friends etc, I had learned to change myself into a better person. (well, hope so. haha) Haha. Am I praising myself? Eh, I don't know. Haha. Whatever it is, it was a past. All these past became part of my life and my memories. Now, let's look forward towards the new year and get really to accept new challenge. WEll, REal challenge. New environment perhaps. Hope that everything will be fine in this brand new year and world peace!

And also to all my friends, Wish You all Good luck for everything in 2005 and don't forget me! And also thanks for everything you guys have done in 2004! Hope to see you all soon!

Good Bye 2004!

Hello 2005!