Friday, December 31, 2004
1 hour and 45 mins more to 2005. Time fly very fast. I was bathing just now, and I thought of posting on my blog and re-called the events that happen this year. OF course I wouldn't be able to re-called what exactly happened EVERYDAY. Only some particular events. Be it in school or at home, or any other. Well, Year 2004, I feel that is the most enjoyable and fun year for me. Many things had happened, and I had learnt alot of precious 'knowledges'. I also feel that, I grow abit. Not in terms of physical, but thinking.
Today is the last day of 2004, and perhaps, last day of me being in Bartley. Well, think about it, I don't bear to leave Bartley. Four years in Bartley. Many happy and sad moments had taken place in there. All the memories seems to be kept in that place. Haiz. All my friends, my teachers and everyone in Bartley. Well, most of the Bartleyans seem to be can't wait to get out of Bartley as soon as possible. Is Bartley really that bad? Are they that not emotional? Don't they have feelings for the place? Well, I don't know. But I don't about others. That's their own opinions and feelings. Nothing can change it.
First day of 2004, which was 1/1/2004. To me, it's just another new year. Well, I think it appeal to everyone. Everyone might think, 'Oh well, it's just another new year' ETC. Yes, it was a new year. But a challenging year to me, because, it's my 'O' level year. Beginning, I was not serious enough about 'O' level. I was as usual, doing my homework, still play computers and watching tv. Well, maybe it's just the beginning. That's why I don't feel the urge of working hard. Actually, at the starting of the year, I told myself, 'This year, is an important year. I must work even harder than before'. But. nah. I just THINK, but never act. Haiz. I'm like that. Only when something push me, then I strive.
When I returned back to school, erm, first day in school in 2004, I'm in 4E2. Well, I feel nothing special about it. I don't feel nervous or what. Just as usual. Just like what I was in Sec 3. Because, all my classmates were the same as Sec 3. No new faces. Nothing. Just that some of our classmates in 3E2 leave and went to other classes. So, I just met my friends in class in morning before assembly. Faces of classmates same. Only different classroom, different teachers(Not all! Some teachers remain the same.). That's all.
As for studies, I'm very happy that I finally had hope in my A.maths because Ms Tay was our A.maths teacher. She made the lessons easier and enable me to understand and learn better. I'm so happy. But the sad thing was, when we took the first A.maths test, many of us failed, because we forgot there's a test. Almost everyone forgot the formulas. This include me too. I failed by a few marks. Ms Tay, of course, was mad. From that day on, our class started to strive on A.maths. Maybe, we started to believe in Ms Tay. Haha.
As usual, in 2004, I still had difficulties in my Chemistry, History and maybe English too. WEll, at the beginning, I always never ask questions if I don't understand. maybe I lazy. Haha. But when 'O' level was a few months away, I started to clarify all those questions that I don't understand. But still, only manage to understand some. Haiz. So, i learnt something, Always ask questions if you don't understand anything. Ya ya. Teachers always say like that. I know from the beginning. But I just don't know why I don't want to ask. Shy? Erm, I don't know. Haha.
This year, is the year, i chased a lot of celebrities. Well, not a lot, I guess. Haha. Why I say that/ Because on this particular day, 15/2/2004, I went to 5566 2nd Album Autograph Session at Bishan Junction 8. Haha, I can remember the date so well, because it was just one day after Valentine Day. So easier for me to remember. Actually, anything to do with 5566, i can remember well. Haha. It's the first time I went for AS, and got my 5566 de CD album, to be autograph by 5566! Haha. But the sad thing was, all my friends were unable to accompany me! So sad. I saw many people came along with their friends, and they could talk about 5566 stuffs, sang their songs etc. I was along. So sad. Only my parents acompany me. Felt so weird. Lolx. But must thanks them, because my dad got red eyes after that due to sit under the sun for long periods. Ya, so next time, they better stay at home. Haha. Ok, back to the subject. I was lonely, but also excited. I remembered I kept looking at my watch. Hoping that it would reach 5pm soon. I kept thinking how I would react. Keep thinking if I could shake hand with Xiezhi. But luckily I wasn't lonely throughout, the group in front of me, talked to me and also the auntie behind me. That auntie talked alot about 5566 stuffs. Haiz. I was listening and also envy at the same time. But then the group of big brother and sisters warned me to be alert, in case that auntie tried to cut 'Q'. Haha.
Ok, finally it's around 5pm. The line started to move forward! Wah! My heart was beating fast. The moment of thinking about seeing xiezhi made me excited! Haha. Finally at 9.15pm, I'm at the open plaza (is it what they call?), where the stage was. I saw 5566 on stage! Wohoo! But I still need to go through a 'maze of barriers' before could get close up to 5566. Haiz, thinking of needed to wait again, I was like, 'huh! must 'Q' again.' Haha. But never mind. Hehe. At every minute, i'm one step nearer to 5566. One by one, I was just RIGHT in front of the stage! Just as I wanted to walk towards the stage, the guard stopped me. Argh. At that time, 5566 was taking a rest. So, all of them stood up. Just as I wanted to take my camera to take picture of xiezhi, the guard said, 'NO camera' I was like 'What the hack! Xiezhi finally stood up and talked to the fans down the stage and you don't allow me to take pictures!!' Argh. But I never said anything, just silent. So sad, no pictures taken on that day. Haiz.
Ok, walking up the stage now. Sheesh! My leg become weak, I'm so scared that I would fall because I'm nervous. AS I walked up, I saw Mengzhe, signing on CD album, Then renfu, then XIEZHI, shaowei and lastly, xiaodao! OH MAN! I was so nervous when I saw xiezhi. He was talking to renfu when I saw 'Happy birthday xiezhi' in chinese. I felt my face boiling. It was so embarrassed because xiezhi never looked up. So i thought he never heard me. However, he looked up after a few seconds I had say. His face looked very blur. Haha. I believed he was thinking, 'did someone call me?'. Haha. But I don't know if he got realised that it was me who called him. haha. Never mind if he didn't. But I hope NEXT YEAR, which is 2005, I can say 'Happy birthday' to him, and he hear it. Haha. Let's hope bla. Happy, but sad and angry. Angry for what? Can see idols. still angry. Ya, I'm angry with the stuffs that there!!! Keep pulling me away, wanted to see the five of them, but end up I only saw mengzhe, renfu and xiezhi. shaowei I didn't saw his face except for the hat he was wearing. As for xiaodao, I think I only saw his hair. You see! So sad. Anyway, I was happy. Hehe.
My autographed 5566 2nd Album
Another seeing idol event was at 8/8/2004. One day before National Day. There was a firework festival concert at MArina Bay. I was there as I had a 'lobang' of selling lightsticks. All thanks to HuiPing, so that I had a chance to watch the concert. Although the selling of the lightsticks failed real badly, but I still manage to watch the concert. Ya, I was HIGH throughout the concert. You guys should have saw me jumping, yelling, screaming and waving the lightsticks. That's was totally not the Shanlyn in school. Haha. So, Karwee, Rasidye, Huiping and Xuemin had saw the 'crazy' side of me. Haha. I still could remember the look that KArwee, huiping and xuemin gave me when I screamed along with the fans, and told Toro to remove his outer coat. I screamed real loud and somemore I drag the tone. Their SURPRISE AND UNBELIEVEABLE look. How I wish I could take photo of their 'rare' expressions. Haha. But also sad again. When 5566 came on stage, I didn't watch their performances till the end. Wah WAh! *sad sad* But forget about it. It had past sometime ago. Haha. Anyway, the pictures of the concert were in 'My Pictures' (in the middle coloumn). Just click the link. I think it's there.
The last 'chasing' idol event, is 4/12/2004, at Singapore Expo Hall 6A. Yay, this month event. And this is a REAL idol chasing event. What's up? S Y L V E S T E R! Haha. Ya, I'm crazy for this Sylvester guy! Like what Huinee say, this guy has 'dian' the girls with his charming smile. Oh no. Can faint. Really! I was like so crazy when I saw him winking to his fans. but not me, so sad. Haha. I was screaming when Sylvester was up on stage. I was just at the second row, so I can see him quite clear. There were many times I almost shake his hands! But didn't!! MY hand were too short! *cry LOUDER* Never mind, manage to take pictures also. Before the event started, I got a paper and used it as my 'temporary' banner. It was totally lousy, but just want to show Sly, that I'M YOUR SUPPORTER! Haha. Just when Sly walked to where I'm standing, I quickly raise up the 'banner' and waved it. I don't know if he saw it. I think he might since it's white and I'm at front too. He did smile and waved back to us. The 'us' is not me. But maybe to the whole group of fans! But I really hoped he waved to me as he saw the banner. HOPE SO! *dream* Haha. After when he performed finish, he walked down the stage, many Sly fans were waiting at the stairs of the stage. I quickly grab my notebook and ran really as fast as I could. I think it's the first time I ran really fast. I didn't think about my health when I ran. I just ran and ran. And I manage to catch up with the big group of fans surrounding Sly. And YES! I managed to stand next to fan, who was just next to Sly! HAHA! I saw his face! But he wore sunglasses. Haha. I quickly used my handphone camera, which was ready to snap Sly pictures at any moment. Haha. Took one. But, BLUR, and was his back! Haiz. Miss again! Never mind, Never mind. There will always be next time. Haha.
And yup! This picture is the 'so-called' that I hold in EXpo that day.
Banner
Oh no! it was 11.30pm! I only have 30 more minutes before 12am!! ok. QUICK! FORWARD FAST.
Now, back to SCHOOL HAPPENINGS.
2004. There's seems to be many test. Not on subjects. But on friendship. This year, there were some problems between my friends. Sebast and xiang Ling. I kept having problems with them. And there were a few times, we were like in a cold war. Sebast was ok. Just once for him. But for Xiang Ling, was a few times.
One morning in Bartley, class 4E2, a fight broke out between Sebastian and me. Over what. Insect. Haha. Well, maybe I was anxious and thought he was going to kill that insect. So I was shouting. I don't feel that I'm shouting at him. Maybe because I'm nervous or what, so my voice was louder that before. But little did I know, SEbastian thought I was shouting at him. As a result, he was angry and started shouting. Being unhappy, I yelled back at him. Fight began. We almost got into fight, if Jian Ren never hold him back.
During this unhappy event, I learnt something. Sebastian seems to wake me up about something. Ya, there's once Pratap was joking about 5566. Being a damn hardcore fan, I shouted at him. But I did it jokingly. Maybe to me, I was just joking and never took it seriously. But maybe to Pratap, he might feel angry. I never realised that until Sebast told me that. Then, I realised that I was really wrong. I stayed in class after that. didn't went for asembly, I thought about it. I shouldn't shout at him like that. I kept crying because of anger and gulit. LAter, I went to apologise to PRatap, in tears. He said it's ok. But i could feel that he wasn't unhappy at that time I shouted at him. Well. after this incident, I began to take note of myself. Maybe because of this, I don't raise my voice unneccesarily, not to SEbastian or anyone anymore. I also began to worry about what others thought of me. Oh ya, this year PArents' meeting day, I actually threw temper to my dad in school, because he forced me to find MR siew as he wanted to talk to me. I refused to as I don't want so much troubles. I'm abit stubborn. So, I threw my temper and I cried. End up, I went back to the classroom where the PArents' meeting were, with Ms prema. (only for our mentor group). I just stormed in the class, with red, wet eyes. Huinee and Polly were shocked to see me crying. Luckily Ms Prema didn't. But I felt that I was making a fool of myself that day. I feel that, this gave a bad impression of me, to everyone. In the classroom, I was like complaining about my dad, in front of Polly's mum somemore. But I didn't care. After when I went home, my parents scold me. I suddenly felt regreted. And I scared now, my friends will have bad impression of me and might dislikes me. That's why I messaged to Huinee and ask her to tell me the truth, how she think of me. Haiz.
After these two, I'm very scared that many of my classmates or friends will dislike me. Or maybe will think that I'm not a good girl. Well, I don't know. But I'm really regret about this. I promised I will never do this again.
Maybe after the fighting incident with Sebast, the friendships between Xiang Ling started to sour. I didn't talk to SEbastian after that. I ignored, but feeling gulity at the same time. I just don't know what to do. But I think it's better to let both of us to cool down for a while. When things were getting fine between me and Sebast, something happen, and Xiang Ling started to treat me differently. I tried not to think too much. But the way she treated me was very different from the last time. So cold. So unfriendly. She don't talk to me and treated me as invisible. At that time, was around May to July, where it was just a few months before my birthday. I was worried. I thought I did something wrong or what. This period, was the time I thought the most. I tried to make eye contact with her, but she just turned away. Of course I was really sad. I cried a few times. I also keep asking Jian Ren and huinee what happened to xiangling, but they kept saying, 'Nothing nothing'. I can sensed that it's not the truth.
Soon, I got fed up. Being ignored and treated coldly everyday, had make me angry with her. I began to ignore her as well. I only talked to Huinee. During that time, I became very sensitive. Whenever someone never talked to me, I would thought that she/he was angry with me. I also began to find Teresa and talked to her, telling her my problems. Teresa kept telling me that xiangling was not angry with me at all or what. But I still couldn't believe. Beside Teresa, i also told my troubles to Xue Min. Haha. They are nice! THey always console me when I'm sad. I'm happy. At least someone is there to listen to my problems and make me feel better. Thanks!
Haiz.
this drag for a few weeks. Sometimes she was cold to me. sometimes she talked to me. I also don't know what to do.
MY birthday came. That day, everyone ignored me. I was like. Really very sad and lonely. I guess Ms Prema saw it. Haha. But afternoon, they gave me surprises! Haha. Thanks!. I was happy of course. Firstly, I thought after all, XiangLing was not angry with me or what.
Just when I thought everything was fine, XiangLing started to ignore me again. Well, I did made Huinee to tell me the truth. She told me everything. Ha, my guess was correct that XiangLIng disliked me. Huinee said, was because of our characteristic. Xiangling disliked me because she find me childish and immatured. I was quite angry at first. I try not to be, but i can't help. In the end, I chose to ignore her. But this time, I started to ignore Huinee too. I don't know why. Maybe I just feel very unhappy and unfair. I begin to treat Huinee abit cold, I admit. But after that, I felt that I should not drag her in as this just between me and xiangling. Well, I'm sorry about that and I apologised to her.
Maybe I'm sensitive again. One day, the class was taking photo for the our page in the Year book. XiangLing and huinee kept taking photos among themselves. I felt lonely and sad. I was thinking why are they like that. I was angry with Huinee for leaving me alone. So, I gave her a fierce look when she entered the class after she came back from the canteen. I think she sensed it. That time, my mood was really bad. And it was Mr Siew's DST. YOu know, Zhenfeng always made alot of noise. As I want silent, I shouted at him. Maybe my tone was really very fierce. Huinee and Teresa knew something was wrong with me. Haha. I saw them making eye contacts, like trying to send signal that 'OH no! what happen to Shanlyn?!'. But I just ignore. Well, I almost cried after that. Don't know why. Maybe I felt terrible in my heart and I just wanted to cry it out.
Haiz, these few months were crying months for me. I kept crying and thinking about what happened and what I done. I cried because I scared that what happened in primary school, might repeated again. But luckily, never.
After the 'storm' was over, everything was fine. XiangLing was okay to me. But sometimes, a bit weird towards me.
After some times, the prelim was over. We got our MAths results. Both E and A Maths. Well, xiangling got higher than me, in terms of overall marks. But for E maths, I score higher than her in Paper 2. And for A maths, did I score higher than her in any paper? erm, can't remember. Never mind. Just this ONE PAPER, XiangLing was unhappy with me. Her black face. I was weird. So I asked Huinee. She told me that because I scored higher than her. I felt weird. Why she get angry over such thing. WEll, I realised later, that since she had been disliked all along, she tended to be unhappy when I scored better than her. At this point, I began to know more about Xiang Ling. From what Huinee said, Xiangling just don't like me to score higher than her, especially MAths. I was unhappy with this. Why is this like that? I scored higher, is because of my effort. I felt unfair. I thought 'Should I score lower than just to please her?' Haiz. I don't know her la.
Until now, everything was ok. We are back to what we used to be. Maybe both of us grow up and learnt something after what had happened. Despite both of us still dislikes some of our characters, we still try to accept each other. Maybe, thhat's a good thing. Try to accept and forget all the unhappy events.
2004, there were others events. CHANGI Broadwalk! Yay! I think this is the most special event I ever had in Year 2004. It was just like a class gathering where everyone went out together, have a breeze and relax ourselves. It was fun! I took many pictures. But then.....ALL THE PICTURES WERE GONE!! Except a few. Because of the stupid computer. The hard disk was spolit and had to reformat. Haiz. I was so sad!! All the photos taken with my friends were gone. Haiz.
There, one photo here. This photo was all 4E2 girls, and our two teachers, Ms Prema and Ms Hayati.
Changi Broadwalk
Those others photos, I had to get it from my friends or maybe try finding it from their friendsters. Haiz.
Time now is 12.27am. It's 2005! Happy New year. Oh man. I think I had lots to say. But my dad! Start to scold liao. Cannot! I must finish this!! 2004!
O level, 1st Nov 2004! OH man! Scary! O Level ok! No kidding. 'O'level, erm, I don't to talk about. Haha.
'O' level End 22nd Nov 2004! Wahahaha.
After that, Prom nite! WAhoo! Cool and fun! But I sacrifice a lot. First time wear strip. And after a few years, I'm wearing dress. And have to wear heels! Haiz. But quite fun. Haha. Can get to see everyone dress differently. Many of them look very suave and pretty. Haha.
Alamak! I think my brain starts to 'break down'. Can't think much. I think I better stop. Maybe continue tommorrow? OK! Sure.
My Class PHoto. 4E2, Bartley 2004!
4E2 (2004)
Ok, the names are paste at the bottom right hand corner of the photo.
The Informal Class photo is very funny! Haha. Look at those faces!
4E2 Informal class photo
HaPPY New Year!
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
SIANZ ! Won't be working until Monday! Haiz. This week, I only worked for one day! Tuesday I was sick, so didn't work. Wednesday, off. Thursday also off, because school sales end. Why don't want let me do in shop? I want to try. Never do before. If Monday go back to work, I want to go Woodgrove! Don't want to go HOly Innocent High. Haiz
Haiz.
Whatever.
Going to find another job soon. But will have mar? Ai yo!!!
Life is like that, so many troubles and problems. Haha.
Friday, December 24, 2004
Ho Ho Ho! MERRY CHRISTMASS!
HaHa. Tomorrow is Christmas, but not celebrating it anyway. But still want to wish everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS...
LaLALaLaLaLaLaLa.
Monday still go to HOLY INNOCENT HIGH to sell uniform! Don't want. I want to go back to Woodgrove. Haiz.
Poor ME.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Now is 10.10pm. I'm abit tired. But whatever, I must complete this post. Haha. For what reason, I don't know. But I just know, I must post SOMETHING TODAY!
Ok, get started
Yesterday, just went to Kbox @ Ang Mo Kio. Well, first time going with Kar Wee, Ming Wei and company. Haha. Actually Hui Ping is going, but because of some personal matters, she was unable to make it. As I'm not really close to Kar Wee and company, I felt abit odd to go. But no choice, since I promised to go. Haha. Xuemin and me kept deciding whether to split or not to split room. Initatlly, I wanted to. But feel that it's not really good to do this. Such actions might make others felt that we don't want to mix with them or something. Well, if it really does, is just that I felt abit awakward and I don't have the COURAGE, C-O-U-R-A-G-E, to sing in front of so many people.
Well, I changed my mind in the end. NOT TO SPLIT ROOM. Efforts got to thanks to Kar Wee. He somehow, was able to persuad me not to SPLIT ROOM.
The Kbox at AMK was so cold. I feel REAL cold soon after entering the karaoke room. This make my voice tremble like don't know what. That's why when I sang 'Jian Ao' with XueMin, my voice sounded weird. Kind of shaky. There are two reasons that caused this, Nervous or COld. Even when I order hot milo to drink, I still feel very cold. I should have wear my black sweater. Haiz. *regret* Regreting it now is useless, because it's over. Just take it as a lesson. WEAR LONG SLEEVES NEXT TIME!
I think we were the only customers in that Kbox. I didn't saw others people Or people singing from the others room. All the singings (and maybe screaming), came from our room. Haha, weird
Erm, I can't think of what to say about yesterday.
Oh, well. Yesterday I tried to search for 'It's my life' and 'Kiss from a rose'. YES! GOT THESE TWO SONGS! Huinee, next time MUST go to Kbox. No excuse. I wanted to sing these two songs for sure. HAHA!
Maybe I didn't sing for a long time. Must practice more. So that I can sing better than yesterday's. HAHA. I just LOVE to sing. But my singing is not REALLY THAT good la. Haha
Anyway, must thanks KArwee. Why? Hm, he somehow encourage me to sing. Keep passing the mike to me. Maybe I'm abit shy you know. *o0ps* Maybe rachelle and her friend, Candy were there. I don't know why I'm like that. If there's someone who I do not really know, or maybe not really very close, I don't dare to be my own self. What I mean? I actually can be kind of high in Kbox yesterday. Especially when singin 5566 or F.I.R songs. I can jump on the couch or scream. Just like in a concert. But yesterday, I wasn't like that. I was sitting on the couch, singing, voice trembling. But in my mind, I really wanted to jump on the couch. When singing 'Wu Shou Wei', I was kind of 'semi- high'. Yea. I was standing on the couch. Maybe I was cold, So move around? Maybe. And also F.I.R's 'Fly Away'. I actually went over to sing with Xue Min and sing real loud. Luckily, no one really heard my voice, because everyone was SINGING LOUD AND SCREAMING TOO.
Nothing I will be AFRAID!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEA!!
Well, hope next time, I can the 'true self of me' in Kbox. The CRAZY, HYPER-ENERGY Girl. Haha.
IT's MY L-I-F-E!
GOOD NIGHT~
Saturday, December 18, 2004
My friends had got their 'N' results. Time flies very fast. 'N' results release, soon it will be mine.
These few days, I keep wondering what will happen on that day when I receive my 'O' level result. Will it be a joy? Or disappointment. I'm really very scared. I just don't want the day of disappointment to come.
Honestly, I don't have much confidence at all, especially English and Combined Humanities. I always had fear in these two subjects. These two are my weak subject. I keep praying to Buddlha, hoping that I will do well. A good result so that i can go to the course that I want. Haiz, let nature take the course. (hm, if this phrase is wrong, please correct me. thank you.)
Later, I'm going out with ileana, acompany her to buy clothes. And also see if there's any cheap clothes, thn I can buy too. Haha. I read on magazine. Giodano and OP got nice clothes. But hope I can wear. Haha. Ya, I want to find some jeans! I need jeans. I'm in need of jeans. L0lx. Wearing jean is more comfortable when going to work.
And also, today Sylvester and Taufik will be at Atrium@ Orchard (outside Plaza Singapura) Oh no!!! At 1.30pm! I WANT TO GO. But have promise ileana to go Bugis with her. Haha, I'm going to annoy her later already. Ah, hoping can go there first, then go back to Bugis to buy the clothes that she want. But then, it will be veyr late by then. So, impossible. Haiz, never mind, there will always be next time right? Hope so. See, See my wishlist. One of them is 'see sly / get sly's autograph'. I think I should strike out 'see sly', because I want to see somemore! You see. We fans are always not contented. We always ask for more (PEPSI advertisement? ASK FOR MORE, haha). Well....
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Tomorrow I'm not working. Haiz. No work, means, cannot 'something'. Not 'no money' ok! Just something, will know one day.
Hey guys. Do you ever believe in horoscope? Well, for me. I don't know. Sometimes it be real true. I just my horoscope in 8 Days this week. Oh ya, mine is Cancer. Sound so unluckily eh? Well, I'm unluckily person. No wonder. Haha. Ok. The 8 Days say, I will have a 'new romantic challenge'. Haha. You believe? You don't right? I also don't. Who am I? I'm one ugly girl. Who will ever have a crush one me? Impossbile. New ronantic challenge. Phrase until it sound so nice.
But I think I'm stupid. I don't believe Horoscope, but sometimes I believe dream. I think I believe more than I believe in horoscope. Whatever we dream, are always the opposite. But sometimes is actually the same. But it is just SOMETIMES. Only 'qiao he'
I don't know. I think I'm crazy now. Thinking that I'm not be able to see him for a week!Know what? I hate to fallen for someone.That feeling to miss someone is horrible. Last time is Wh. Now is him! I dun know.
Never mind. I'm just crazy. Just that it that I'm typing nonsense. I'm so bored now! Tomorrow no work. Maybe same for one or two weeks until 23rd Dec. Can die of borness. But tomorrow I'm going to cut my hair. I want to have a new look. But what kind?
Monday, December 13, 2004
It's my life. By Bon Jovi
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
Chorus:
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life
Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down
Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!
Yes, this is one of the song that Sly sang in Sl Final Countdown. For whatever reason, I totally love this song. This song is super rocks! And also SUPER hard to sing. I'm still looking for the original version of this song. Haiz.
Anyway, today's working. Wah! Many Pe t-shirt, Blouse and Long PAnts were out of stock! Woah.
Never mind about that. This few days, i can faint of tease. Whose? Huinee's! *faint* Why? This little girl here. Haha, keep trying to matchmake me with him and me. *faint* Who is this guy? Not saying. He works in student mart also. But he often helps to carry goods. For what reason why Ah nee tease me? Because there's a time, we wore same colour tee shirt. *double faint* And also, there's a time when Uncle John drove me to Woodlands Ring Primary School, he sat beside me in van *triple faint* Haha.
I admit I have good impression of him. *Don't think hay wire* Because, he is really helpful. He will come to help peoplpe when they are carrying heavy boxes of uniforms. He helped me once or twice when I try to carry one heavy box. But then, maybe he feel that it is his job, so maybe he think he should help. Quite gentleman la. Haha. That's all only! Nothing much
But sometimes I really pity him. He is like a lonely soul in Student mart @ AMK. Most of the time, he seems to be the only guy. Even when there's another, he is also very quiet. No close perhaps? Maybe only when Ah bui is around, then he got talk to him. Otherwise, he either carry the goods in and out, or stand in one area, waiting for errands. People at student mart always like ask him to do this do that. Today, he went to buy rice. I also heard from huinee, that she even saw him helping to wash car. Oh no. What is this? Haiz. Sometimes when I went back there, I wish I can at least say 'Hi' to him. But so weird. Of all the sudden, say 'Hi'. Weird eh? Later he thought otherwise, then I faint. No way. Impossible hor.
Hey hey hey! Don't get the wrong idea. It's not that I 'xin tong' that he is always alone or what okay! Impossible. One is so tall, and one is short.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Hello my friends! I'm back from my holidays in Penang Island. Yes, first time going to holiday with a BIG group of people. Erm, not exactly very big, only 10 people. My family and my relatives (2 families). This holiday is also the second time I took the plane. And this time I didn't scare until cry, when the plane took off. So, bro, stop teasing me
It was very fun and also funny, in Penang. We stayed in Sunway Hotel. The hotel is ok. L0lx.
First day in Penang Island, we just walked around the area near our hotel. There are many road-side hawkers. But most of them 'open stall' at night. Is just like Night Market. We went to the Tower (Komar). That tower is 60 storeys high! We went up there and view the scenery. Wah, it was so beautiful. Can see almost half of the PEnang Island. Haha, I felt like a giant. Everything was so small. Bro, Yongyuan and me were so lame that we count how many cars of a colour, we can find. I was unluckily. DIGITAL CAMERA WENT FAULTY AT THIS TIME!! I can't took any pictures at all! Pa, you see la, if you allow me to bring my handphone then ok lor. Can take pictures. Haha, I keep disturbing my father about this. But joking la. Haiz, so no choice, got to used Cheryl's camera. Ya, Cheryl is my counsin. Same age as me.
Then at night, we went to Gurney Drive. The place was near sea or river? I don't know. Whatever it is, there are water! *what??* That place was cool! There are many hawkers. The hawkers were like charts, erm, those moblie stalls (did I use the correct word?). Some of the stalls were in vans. (That means, the van is the stall). Remember last time in Orchard (izzit Orchard?), there are moblie hawkers? Is something like that.
So many kind of food! Got Penang LAska, Lok Lok, etc etc. Yum Yum. I try the Laska there. Erm, it was not very spicy. It was abit sweet, and sour. The soup was totally different from our local Laska. VERY VERY VERY DIFFERENT. 100% DIFFERENT.
After that, we put some kind of fireworks (mini). So fun! S'pore can't play this kind of stuff. It was abit scary la. Because of the force. But fun. And of course, need to pay for buying the firework. L0lx. Anyway, it's cheap. RM 2, that's mean S$1. Cheap eh?
Second day. We booked a van to bring us around. Second day was a fun one. We went to Penang Hill! Yes, I finally took the funicular train. those kind of train that look like stairs inside. The hill was high. WE went up there. It was cooling. Haha. There was many haze around when we went there. And raining for a while. But soon it stopped and the haze is gone. And there, the beautiful view from the hill. Wah! My counsin definately enjoys taking photos at there. Haha.
Then we went to some shops, buy some tibits . After lunch, we had along journey to the Butterfly farm. From the place we had lunch to the Butterfly farm, it was just like fron an end to the other end. And somewhere it was located in hill. the road there keep turning and turning and end up my mother cannot tarhan and she vomitted half-way. I was abit giddy too. When reach the Butterfly farm, only me, my bro, and my two cousin (yongyuan and Cheryl) went in. All the adults stayed outside. Hey, need to paid money sia. Haha. Ir was a butterfly farm, but I felt that we were in Butterfly Haunted Farm. Ya la! Others were watching the butteflies. taking photos. Were in a calm situation. Except the four of us, screaming all the way. The butterflies just fly anywhere they like. My youngest counsin, Yongyuan! keep screaming. I just quickly wore my windbreaker. I feel more safer to wear it. Haha. I was like a leader. Gosh! WE were like play Eagle catching chick (the game. I translated from Chinese). The eagles were the butterflies. I'm the mother hen and the other three were chicks. Yes! I was in front, Cheryl behind me, Yongyuan behind Cheryl, and my bro behind Yongyuan. We formed a line and screamed like dunno what, when there were butteflies at the sides, on the floor or just flew past. Actually, it is not scary. It just that, Yongyuan's scream made us scare! Ya. He can suddenly SCREAM and then scare us, because we thought there were something. I actually thought thaT Yongyuan got scare until he pee. Because there were water on his legs. And somemore dirty one. But actually, he fell on the ground and the ground is wet mar. But know what, no one, NONE OF US actually saw him fell. Amazing eh, we were too busy screaming that we didn't notice at all. Haha.
To end the screaming, we better went to the gallery of insects, bugs. Ya, it was much more better! NO MORE SCREAMS! Just SHOCK and AMAZEMENT. Wah. Haha. Many insects that we never saw before were in glass cuboids. The four of us were watching a particular insect, I think is lizard. Coz, it seems that it was trying to eat up the small insects inside. But in the end, never.
Then, we went to a shop that sell many many chocolate! oh my! my favourite. Then shop assisant keeps giving us samples of chocolates and I keep eating. Lolx. But of course, we do buy a few boxes of chocolates. There are durian chocolate, pineapple, mango, coffee and chocolates that are sugar free. Sugar were being replaced with sweeteners. Haha (F&N, bleh)
Third day. Our last day in Penang. Need to check out of the hotel at 12pm. Gosh! Our flight is at night. We got no choice, but to leave the bag, luggages in the hotel.After that, we went to 'explore'. We walked to Penang Port and took a ferry to Butterworth (@ main island of malaysia). The ferry is those that can 'carry' passengers and vehicles. Ya, first time taking such ferry. I got a bit headache, but ok la. Maybe too excited. Haha. We just took the ferry to and fro. On the ferry trip, we spotted a lady who wear until so indecent. Sheesh. Cheryl and me saw her. And our faces were like so disgusted by her clothing. She just wear a tube bra and those kind of hot pant (damn short) and a demin jacket. It was like as if she did not wear anything except her undergarments. OH my. Somemore she is fat. I know I'm mean, but it was really disgusting. Worst, she even ask me to take photo for her. *vomit* When we went back to the hotel, me, Cheryl, my mum and my two aunts were talking about this lady. They too, feel disgusted about what she wear.
around 7pm ++, there is a bus that bring us to the airport. Our flight is around 10.15pm. MEanwhile, we shopped in the airport. Bought one t-shirt for myself. And then you know la, went into the flight, bla..bla..bla..BORING. haiz.
That's all, my trip to Penang ISland
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Tomorrow I will be off for holiday in Penang. WIll be there until Sat
Flight in the morning and back to Singapore on Saturday night.
Will be missing doing work in student mart. Ha.
Anyway, huinee will be alone with Ah bui in Woodgrove SEc. Poor girl. Hope she can 'survive' theses 3 days of borness. Haha. Girl girl, you sure you can cope hor? If cannot, ask someone to help you la. Hehe.
Ok. Stop here.
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
I'm confused, I'm frustrated, I'm worry. And I'm.....Haiz. Mixed feelings now. I don't know how I feel. TO be angry? Or to be sorry?
I don't know what going on. It seems that there are always misunderstandings. From the last time. And now. This time, well, I don't know
I don't understand why she get angry kind of easily over a small matter. As a friend, I will like to give her a piece of advice that, Please don't angry over one small matter. Even if you just angry for a short while, but honestly, other people will feel that you are petty. I'm not trying to say bad about you. I just hope that you can change this. If you choose to be angry with me again after you read this, I really have nothing to say. HOnestly.
And, I'm really sad that you are unhappy over my reaction after I knew that you support for Taufik. Yes, I did say 'How dare you'. But you know me for long. Do you think I will get angry or unhappy about this? If at that time, you assume that I mean my word, then, I'm disappointed.
And also, I don't understand why you say that on MSN on SAturday. What you mean 'You don't need to be like that'? Is it you think I'm ignoring you, and refuse to answer? IF that what you think so, I want to say. I wasn't ignoring you. Is just that I need some time to confirm where I will be going. Maybe you think that I'm giving excuse that 'my mum was asleep and I can't confirm'. Well, I'm not. As you know, I need my mum's permission before I can confirm everything. I think you should have know that by now.
HOnestly, I really don't know what you are thinking now. You can say you are disappointed in me. I'm also.
That's all I'm going to say. I feel that I did nothing wrong and I don't understand why you feel that way. Maybe I feel that it's better to let you know what I feel. That's all.
and also, I want to say that I have not change at all. Not at all.
Monday, December 06, 2004
Sylvester
Sylvester.
ACtually is very clear on my DIGITAL CAMERA! But when I upload on the computer, it became black and i need to brighten. End up like that
HEy, why I put that as my title? I don't know why too. Haha. MY mind just kept re-playing this song that Sly had sang! *I recorded the song when watching the repeated SI on Sat* The song was so nice. Anyone has the original version? Can send me please? I'm really in love with this song. Haha
Anyway, my post about Oli was quoted in Lian He Wan Bao 4/12. Quite surprising.
Thanks to YellowChrist for the effort
Yea? saw it? HA. Oli fans can start cursing me. Soon I think. By the way, I'm not the only one who got quoted.
I had a WONDERFUL day in SIngapore Expo yesterday!.
Guess what? The top 3 SI finalists, Sly, Taufik and Oli were there! ACtually it was the Disability Awarness Week. And there are some exhibits (something like that). SO, they invited the 3 finalists! *Wohoo* YUp!. I went with Jue Hui (she wanted to see Taufik) in the morning, erm, around 10am. But we reached the Expo at 10.30am. Surprisingly, there wasn't much people as I expect. ONly a few. I think less than 20, (or maybe slightly more than 20?) were waiting outside Hall 6A. The event started at 11am. SO, can said that it was not 'open' yet.
11am! All of us ran to the stage area. Both me and juehui walked slowly to there. Too lazy to run. Haha. But we were still at second row. Not bad huh.
Ok Forward >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >>
2pm! Yes! The MC came on stage and she greet us. Blah bLAh. ACtually all the fans were standing up. BUt then there were some disable people who wanted to watch the SI finalists as well. bUT done to their condition, they can;t stand. Hence, we must sit up (or squat) Yes, we listened. and we sit
First, Oli. I wasn't high at all. I do not really like her. Her attitude after losing, is abit what. NOt very good. But I took one or two pics of her. HAha
Now, Sly's turn! OH man. All the fans stand and just can;t wait to see him. But because what the MC said earlier on, I didn't intend to stand. But the front rows were standing, if we don't stand, we really can't see anything. So, all those at the back, had no choice but to stand. As a result, everyone stand!
I was pretty angry. About what? MY HANDS!!! Why can't they be just a litte more longer! There's a few times I shake Sly's hands! OH MAN! OH ya, I was standing at the side. SEcond row. Whenever SLy walked to HIS right hand side, all the fans down the stage, INCLUDING me, put out their hands, hoping that Sly will shake! All those in front of me, got shake by him! MY HANDS WERE TOO SHORT! CAn't reach out far. The poeple in front blocked me too. Wah!!! Not only SLy, Taufik also.
But luckily I took abit QUITE clear pictures of him. Hehe, he was so handsome. look so cute! haha
When Sly's performance end, all Sly's fans rushed to where Sly will come down from the stage. I saw it and I quickly grabbed my notebook, hoping to get his signature.
Then, a quite BIG crowd of fans chase after Sly as he walked back to their so call 'resting area'. I was quite near to him! Can say is 'near' because I can saw him quite clear! Haha. But all the fans were pushing here and there! Can't even have a GOOD look. Argh. But never mind. Hehe, at least can get to see him. And manage to take a photo of his back! haha. Quite good la. L0LX
BUt I was half-die after chasing him from the stage to the 'resting area'. First time ran very fast.
ok. End here.
Realise that the way I post became worst! MY ENGLISH! OH NO!!!